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May. 26th, 2004 08:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightSomeone is using me as a tool to manipulate Seamus. I don't know why me, except possibly that my number is easy to get 'cuz I'm kind of famous. I got a mysterious call saying that if I didn't tell Seamus to do as they said, they would kill Katie.
So I did, I have been. I'm their "mouth", used to order Seamus to destroy things. I know there's more coming. I wish I knew what to do... or some way to stop this, but I can't. They know too much, it seems, enough that I don't dare make an overt move without risking Katie and Seamus, and I can't do that.
Worse, I think this is the final nail in the coffin between me and Katie -- she doesn't blame me for this, per se, but it's something I brought into their lives, and something I'm now associated with. She hasn't said a word to me lately, not like she used to. A month ago or so, I believed she was family.. now, she feels like another distant, lost friend. Like Stephen, or Cat. I hope I'm wrong.
My love life isn't any less confusing. Lila has spent a lot of time with me lately -- doing food, hanging out, a photo shoot at the dojo the other day (don't even ask...). I'm honestly a little worried... she seems to be developing feelings faster for me than I'm able to reciprocate, and I feel like I'm constantly walking a line around her -- can't get too close, can't be too far away. Compunding this is Angelin, who's taken off for a month or so for reasons unknown -- but which I'm assured, aren't me.
I'm so confused, and I have absolutely no one to turn to. I guess I'll just shut up, and when everything collapses on me, suffer.
So I did, I have been. I'm their "mouth", used to order Seamus to destroy things. I know there's more coming. I wish I knew what to do... or some way to stop this, but I can't. They know too much, it seems, enough that I don't dare make an overt move without risking Katie and Seamus, and I can't do that.
Worse, I think this is the final nail in the coffin between me and Katie -- she doesn't blame me for this, per se, but it's something I brought into their lives, and something I'm now associated with. She hasn't said a word to me lately, not like she used to. A month ago or so, I believed she was family.. now, she feels like another distant, lost friend. Like Stephen, or Cat. I hope I'm wrong.
My love life isn't any less confusing. Lila has spent a lot of time with me lately -- doing food, hanging out, a photo shoot at the dojo the other day (don't even ask...). I'm honestly a little worried... she seems to be developing feelings faster for me than I'm able to reciprocate, and I feel like I'm constantly walking a line around her -- can't get too close, can't be too far away. Compunding this is Angelin, who's taken off for a month or so for reasons unknown -- but which I'm assured, aren't me.
I'm so confused, and I have absolutely no one to turn to. I guess I'll just shut up, and when everything collapses on me, suffer.
