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Apr. 20th, 2004 09:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightLast night I tried to drive home while drunk. Katie stopped me. I ended up taking her home.
We talked. I can't say anything she said helped me. I think we both know that. How can I believe this is for the best? How can I feel anything through the pain? How can I believe there's still hope for me, when everyone has turned away? And yet... the small simple act of someone being there for me, when I needed a friend, helped. And for that I owe her a debt of gratitude.
I don't know why she's good to me. But she is. I wish I could trust her more.
I skipped practice this morning and Nhairis showed up. Barged her way in the door and sat on my bed. Make me talk to her. We came up with a plan to throw the Traditions off my scent for a while. Even keep me as a member of them, despite the Tribunal. Nhairis rocks. She told me she wants to adopt me, sort of. If I were to accept anybody, it'd be her. Can't trust her that much, yet, though. She deserves my trust. I can't trust right now though.
I miss...
.....
.
We talked. I can't say anything she said helped me. I think we both know that. How can I believe this is for the best? How can I feel anything through the pain? How can I believe there's still hope for me, when everyone has turned away? And yet... the small simple act of someone being there for me, when I needed a friend, helped. And for that I owe her a debt of gratitude.
I don't know why she's good to me. But she is. I wish I could trust her more.
I skipped practice this morning and Nhairis showed up. Barged her way in the door and sat on my bed. Make me talk to her. We came up with a plan to throw the Traditions off my scent for a while. Even keep me as a member of them, despite the Tribunal. Nhairis rocks. She told me she wants to adopt me, sort of. If I were to accept anybody, it'd be her. Can't trust her that much, yet, though. She deserves my trust. I can't trust right now though.
I miss...
.....
.
