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Apr. 15th, 2004 05:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightLast night Cadence called me, while I was out at the Moon. It caught me by surprise, and I don't know if she's being careful to hide or what, but the number was private so I can't call back. Hell. Still, she wasn't antagonistic or anything... just confused.
I made every effort to let her know that I would wait for her to make a decision. She doesn't know if she wants to come back or not, or -- she's confused about everything. I don't know why. But I said I would wait for her, and I will. I'm certain of this decision, like I'm certain about few other things in life. I know that, if Cadence wants to return to me, I'll be waiting for her. She has agreed to at least come see me, in person, when she's ready. Perhaps things will work out with us.
Toho was actually advising me not to wait too long last night. Oh, there's a big no-comment. But it's not as if other available girls are pouring out of the woodwork eager to date me, and I'm spurning them. I can't think of any other girls I KNOW that are single and might concievably, possibly be interested. Not that it really matters.
Toho and Carolyn both got to hear the soul-in-the-blade story -- it turns out those two know a lot more about Mage business than I would have thought on first blush. I can't say I can complain, since I can talk to them about things that other people like Cadence and Katie wouldn't understand.
Katie, incidentally, sent me a very sweet song-as-e-mail last night. I owe her a hug for that one.
Practice has been rather disappointing, or more appropriately, I've been kind of disappointing myself; evidently Nhairis-sensei doesn't think I'm ready for more difficult training yet. I wonder when she Awakened, or started training? I think she'd tell me if I asked her; she's very much not the cold, aloof, mysterious Akashic mentor. She's a person too. I still consider myself very lucky to be training under her again. I hope I can make her proud.
Do I want to go out tonight? I really don't know...
I made every effort to let her know that I would wait for her to make a decision. She doesn't know if she wants to come back or not, or -- she's confused about everything. I don't know why. But I said I would wait for her, and I will. I'm certain of this decision, like I'm certain about few other things in life. I know that, if Cadence wants to return to me, I'll be waiting for her. She has agreed to at least come see me, in person, when she's ready. Perhaps things will work out with us.
Toho was actually advising me not to wait too long last night. Oh, there's a big no-comment. But it's not as if other available girls are pouring out of the woodwork eager to date me, and I'm spurning them. I can't think of any other girls I KNOW that are single and might concievably, possibly be interested. Not that it really matters.
Toho and Carolyn both got to hear the soul-in-the-blade story -- it turns out those two know a lot more about Mage business than I would have thought on first blush. I can't say I can complain, since I can talk to them about things that other people like Cadence and Katie wouldn't understand.
Katie, incidentally, sent me a very sweet song-as-e-mail last night. I owe her a hug for that one.
Practice has been rather disappointing, or more appropriately, I've been kind of disappointing myself; evidently Nhairis-sensei doesn't think I'm ready for more difficult training yet. I wonder when she Awakened, or started training? I think she'd tell me if I asked her; she's very much not the cold, aloof, mysterious Akashic mentor. She's a person too. I still consider myself very lucky to be training under her again. I hope I can make her proud.
Do I want to go out tonight? I really don't know...
