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Apr. 5th, 2004 10:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightYou know... there's just no hope for it.
Everyone has parents popping up out of the woodwork, it seems. Cat has her new parents. Irina's are running around Rhydin now. Stephen's always had his. Cadence went to look for hers. Even some new friend of Cat and Stephen's (who they didn't bother to introduce me to) turns out to be Gem's kid.
No one really understands.
Meanwhile, the one person I've ever respected as more than just another adult -- that being Nhairis -- is in the worst hell of her life from an emotional standpoint. Evidently she and Shadow have *broken up* because Andrea and Shadow wanted to get rid of me so badly, they manipulated Nhairis to do it. I wish I'd never gone looking for her as a sensei. She doesn't deserve to be tortured just because she had the misfortune to fall in with me.
She says Andrea and Shadow are "unavoidably delayed" because of trouble in the Umbra. I really don't believe it. I think my sister is just tired of trying and wants me to go away. I wish Nhairis would just let me go and return to Shadow and Andrea, so they can be a happy family.
I yelled at Gem and her kid tonight because they were being all hurt and "I was hurt, no I was hurt too!" Giving them something in common -- both of them annoyed at me -- actually seemed to help them communicate. But now I've got Sydney, Irina's weird friend, Irina, Gem, and the kid all PO'd at me, and right now Cat and Stephen are pretty much in their own little happy world where troubled people like me are swept under the carpet and ignored. Katie's got her own problems, Cadence is gone, I'm just alone.
I'm going to go hide under my covers and just not come out any more.
Everyone has parents popping up out of the woodwork, it seems. Cat has her new parents. Irina's are running around Rhydin now. Stephen's always had his. Cadence went to look for hers. Even some new friend of Cat and Stephen's (who they didn't bother to introduce me to) turns out to be Gem's kid.
No one really understands.
Meanwhile, the one person I've ever respected as more than just another adult -- that being Nhairis -- is in the worst hell of her life from an emotional standpoint. Evidently she and Shadow have *broken up* because Andrea and Shadow wanted to get rid of me so badly, they manipulated Nhairis to do it. I wish I'd never gone looking for her as a sensei. She doesn't deserve to be tortured just because she had the misfortune to fall in with me.
She says Andrea and Shadow are "unavoidably delayed" because of trouble in the Umbra. I really don't believe it. I think my sister is just tired of trying and wants me to go away. I wish Nhairis would just let me go and return to Shadow and Andrea, so they can be a happy family.
I yelled at Gem and her kid tonight because they were being all hurt and "I was hurt, no I was hurt too!" Giving them something in common -- both of them annoyed at me -- actually seemed to help them communicate. But now I've got Sydney, Irina's weird friend, Irina, Gem, and the kid all PO'd at me, and right now Cat and Stephen are pretty much in their own little happy world where troubled people like me are swept under the carpet and ignored. Katie's got her own problems, Cadence is gone, I'm just alone.
I'm going to go hide under my covers and just not come out any more.
