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Jan. 15th, 2004 04:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightMan, nothing ever goes right.
Stephen and I are still fighting. He's such a girl, I swear to god, pulling this "If you don't know what you did wrong I'm not going to tell you" shit. And now Irina and Cat have both gotten involved.
Poor Cat, I feel terrible for her. She was trying so hard (in her way) to get us to make up. She just doesn't understand that, well, I fucked up and I can't be forgiven for it. I didn't mean to fuck up. I didn't realize Stephen had changed so much in the few days since we came to Rhydin. We always helped each other out before... now he's cutting ties, it seems. Gonna sink or swim on his own, and if not on his own, then at least without me.
Irina, too. I spent the evening after Stephen and Cat left talking to her, or rather, making an idiot of myself again. I told her I was lonely, and she took it personally. Burst into tears right there. I don't even understand why that affected her so much, she seems so cool and levelheaded constantly. I wonder if there's been some sort of trouble in the past that I hit a nerve on. It doesn't really matter... She said she might be able to forgive me, but frankly, even if she does, that's going to be a big bumping point in our friendship...
I want to just write Rhydin off as lost, but I can't. Stephen called me last night, asking me if I still wanted to help Seamus and Rose. The fucker, he knows I do. Evidently some resource of mine is going to get called on, probably money. I can't see Don and Sydney voluntarily letting me help with a rescue in any other way. Well, money is what I'm good for. Speaking of which, I ought to consider sinking some money into the academy. Seems like a good use of it, especially since I'm not using it.
Stephen, last night, made a comment about making me a robot girl. Actually I realize now he's right, that's probably the only kind of girl I could ever not make miserable, and even then only if they were programmed to ignore my various faults. And I could get a naive ninja catgirl robot to date. Maybe I should try to take him up on his offer.
Naw. I'm not that pathetic. I'll just sit around and fantasize about it.
Stephen and I are still fighting. He's such a girl, I swear to god, pulling this "If you don't know what you did wrong I'm not going to tell you" shit. And now Irina and Cat have both gotten involved.
Poor Cat, I feel terrible for her. She was trying so hard (in her way) to get us to make up. She just doesn't understand that, well, I fucked up and I can't be forgiven for it. I didn't mean to fuck up. I didn't realize Stephen had changed so much in the few days since we came to Rhydin. We always helped each other out before... now he's cutting ties, it seems. Gonna sink or swim on his own, and if not on his own, then at least without me.
Irina, too. I spent the evening after Stephen and Cat left talking to her, or rather, making an idiot of myself again. I told her I was lonely, and she took it personally. Burst into tears right there. I don't even understand why that affected her so much, she seems so cool and levelheaded constantly. I wonder if there's been some sort of trouble in the past that I hit a nerve on. It doesn't really matter... She said she might be able to forgive me, but frankly, even if she does, that's going to be a big bumping point in our friendship...
I want to just write Rhydin off as lost, but I can't. Stephen called me last night, asking me if I still wanted to help Seamus and Rose. The fucker, he knows I do. Evidently some resource of mine is going to get called on, probably money. I can't see Don and Sydney voluntarily letting me help with a rescue in any other way. Well, money is what I'm good for. Speaking of which, I ought to consider sinking some money into the academy. Seems like a good use of it, especially since I'm not using it.
Stephen, last night, made a comment about making me a robot girl. Actually I realize now he's right, that's probably the only kind of girl I could ever not make miserable, and even then only if they were programmed to ignore my various faults. And I could get a naive ninja catgirl robot to date. Maybe I should try to take him up on his offer.
Naw. I'm not that pathetic. I'll just sit around and fantasize about it.
