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Dec. 15th, 2004 07:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightWhy the hell did I have this under my bed? Oh yes, I remember now. I went through it a while back, then fell asleep... it must have fallen underneath. Well, I've found it again.
'Tis the season.
Last year, Christmas was so much different than it will be this year. Last year the Valkonans invited me over for Christmas dinner, because they knew I didn't have a family, and I'd be spending the day in the mansion eating prepared food by myself. I have to admit, the Valkonans were always good to me. I ought to do something to thank them, but I don't know what... Then Stephen and I hung out afterwards, playing a new game he'd gotten and talking about the future. The Holotheather project I was coming up with. The portal we'd found out about, in the Squil Tunnel. How to get girls.
I miss those old days. Those were younger, more carefree days. Drag-racing and goofing off and general misbehaving. Me and Stephen, juvenile delinquents who weren't really deliquent, just a little silly and not at all worried about the future. Him and his family and me and my money and us and our problems.
I know those days are gone. This past year has done so much to us. We're both in school, we both have girlfriends, we both have so much on our plates. We've walked two different paths since then, we've had our fights and our troubles, and... we're not the same carefree kids any more. We've grown up, and left our pasts behind... Or maybe not. Maybe I should talk to Stephen about this, and see if maybe he'd be interested in being just a couple of carefree guys again every once in a while.
It would be fun. The guy means a lot to me, as a friend. I just wish I knew how to *tell* him that.
This year I'm going to have a -- well, hell, I don't think Shadow actually celebrates Christmas, but probably an after-solstice dinner -- after because werewolves have a huge rite they perform at the winter solstice, which he will probably be needed for -- with my family. An actual real family, with a mother and a sister, and... Shadow will be there, and Glass, and I hope Sashra. It's something that, if I've ever had it before, I don't remember it. It will be wonderful.
And those are my happy thoughts.
'Tis the season.
Last year, Christmas was so much different than it will be this year. Last year the Valkonans invited me over for Christmas dinner, because they knew I didn't have a family, and I'd be spending the day in the mansion eating prepared food by myself. I have to admit, the Valkonans were always good to me. I ought to do something to thank them, but I don't know what... Then Stephen and I hung out afterwards, playing a new game he'd gotten and talking about the future. The Holotheather project I was coming up with. The portal we'd found out about, in the Squil Tunnel. How to get girls.
I miss those old days. Those were younger, more carefree days. Drag-racing and goofing off and general misbehaving. Me and Stephen, juvenile delinquents who weren't really deliquent, just a little silly and not at all worried about the future. Him and his family and me and my money and us and our problems.
I know those days are gone. This past year has done so much to us. We're both in school, we both have girlfriends, we both have so much on our plates. We've walked two different paths since then, we've had our fights and our troubles, and... we're not the same carefree kids any more. We've grown up, and left our pasts behind... Or maybe not. Maybe I should talk to Stephen about this, and see if maybe he'd be interested in being just a couple of carefree guys again every once in a while.
It would be fun. The guy means a lot to me, as a friend. I just wish I knew how to *tell* him that.
This year I'm going to have a -- well, hell, I don't think Shadow actually celebrates Christmas, but probably an after-solstice dinner -- after because werewolves have a huge rite they perform at the winter solstice, which he will probably be needed for -- with my family. An actual real family, with a mother and a sister, and... Shadow will be there, and Glass, and I hope Sashra. It's something that, if I've ever had it before, I don't remember it. It will be wonderful.
And those are my happy thoughts.
