morganknight | (no subject)

On the one hand, I happen to feel pretty useless. It's one thing to have talent, resources, and capabilities which you've honed to perfection over the course of years; it's another entirely to have a use for them, and I have the one but not the other. I suppose I really ought to stop feeling sensitive about being unable to help the people I care about, but I just can't do it, not by wishing it.

The most important thing for me to do, now, is not fall back into the trap of *caring* what people I can never please think about me. I can't live my life to please unpleasable others.

I wonder if Katie is purposely distancing herself from me, or if there's just enough going on in her life to put a distance there. I can never tell for sure. I know it must be hard on her, with Seamus and I always butting heads, but... I can't stop that, events have proven that. Even when I try. And if she ever wants to talk to me about it, well, I'll try and make myself clear as best I can. Still... reference the last paragraph, as regards my handling of Seamus.

Things with Sashra are wonderful for which I'm thankful. Kym and I are going to learn how to ice skate.

Keep focused on the good things, Morgan Knight.