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Oct. 27th, 2004 12:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightOn the one hand, I happen to feel pretty useless. It's one thing to have talent, resources, and capabilities which you've honed to perfection over the course of years; it's another entirely to have a use for them, and I have the one but not the other. I suppose I really ought to stop feeling sensitive about being unable to help the people I care about, but I just can't do it, not by wishing it.
The most important thing for me to do, now, is not fall back into the trap of *caring* what people I can never please think about me. I can't live my life to please unpleasable others.
I wonder if Katie is purposely distancing herself from me, or if there's just enough going on in her life to put a distance there. I can never tell for sure. I know it must be hard on her, with Seamus and I always butting heads, but... I can't stop that, events have proven that. Even when I try. And if she ever wants to talk to me about it, well, I'll try and make myself clear as best I can. Still... reference the last paragraph, as regards my handling of Seamus.
Things with Sashra are wonderful for which I'm thankful. Kym and I are going to learn how to ice skate.
Keep focused on the good things, Morgan Knight.
The most important thing for me to do, now, is not fall back into the trap of *caring* what people I can never please think about me. I can't live my life to please unpleasable others.
I wonder if Katie is purposely distancing herself from me, or if there's just enough going on in her life to put a distance there. I can never tell for sure. I know it must be hard on her, with Seamus and I always butting heads, but... I can't stop that, events have proven that. Even when I try. And if she ever wants to talk to me about it, well, I'll try and make myself clear as best I can. Still... reference the last paragraph, as regards my handling of Seamus.
Things with Sashra are wonderful for which I'm thankful. Kym and I are going to learn how to ice skate.
Keep focused on the good things, Morgan Knight.
