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I've been reluctant to talk or write about this for fear of jinxing it and inviting disaster... but people are starting to learn now, so it's official. What the hell, here goes: I asked Diast to marry me, and she said yes.

Now, I knew for a fact she would say yes, she's told me as much previously, but quite frankly asking her scared the holy hell out of me. I almost didn't do it just because it scared me so damn much! But I did, and I didn't screw it up, and she accepted. She accepted!

Man. I know it's not gonna be easy, with her duties and my schooling and all the crap we have to wade through to just be together, but it's gonna be *good*. I couldn't be happier about this.

I've been kind of scared to actually, purposefully bring it up, though. I want to ask Stephen to be my best man, of course, but things have been so weird for him lately, and he's been so generally angry and upset, that I don't think he'd welcome it. He hasn't officially asked me to be his, of course, but I think it's sort of assumed. Maybe that's a dangerous assumption. But he's in no hurry, Cat's still got a couple years of school left before she graduates. Anyway, I'm worried about him; I think I need to drag him out and get him to have some fun. Cat too. I should plan for that.

Still, I'm so excited!