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Jun. 30th, 2004 04:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightDear heavens, preserve me.
Yesterday the attack came. Heather alerted me with about an hour to go that the Technocracy would be showing up on the Holotheater doorstep. Worse yet, her mother would be leading the attack. (Yes. Her mother. I really don't know what to make of this.)
We battened down the hatches. I locked her and my pets away in her apartment, and headed for the Holotheater controls. The holographs work by projecting force, really. Energy -- heat, pressure, kinetic, whatever you have. However, the basic coding of the Holotheater is safe -- that is to say, bullets will not actually cause damage, fire will not actually burn. The Holotheater can't hurt its inhabitants. Unless the safety is off.
They charged the halls, I brought up the Danger Room program. They came down the walls, I turned the wall images to fire. They came in the doors and I... I left the controls, and went out to take care of things personally. WHY DID I DO THAT?! It was stupid, foolish, dumb -- and worse, it got Heather hurt. She projected herself down to see what was going on -- a cat-beast mauled her, her mother followed her, shot at her...
I... don't remember it very clearly.
And I'm scared. Am I losing my mind? It's all a haze, until I ran upstairs to heal Heather, when it all returns with crystal clarity, but nothing feels quite the same any more. Not since that fight... not during it... what's happening to me?
I went outside, yesterday. I don't know why. I wanted to find out what's wrong with Katie, what she's suffering from. It's preeclampsia, and that's bad. Worse, Kindra -- I didn't mention her, she's a friend Katie sent to me for a place to stay, I gave her one of the old apartments -- turns out she'd been attacked last night. God damn stupid me, couldn't just step away, had to go and talk to her and comfort her. I'm so damn tired. I'm so damn *tired*....
Zettai unmei mokushiroku.
Yesterday the attack came. Heather alerted me with about an hour to go that the Technocracy would be showing up on the Holotheater doorstep. Worse yet, her mother would be leading the attack. (Yes. Her mother. I really don't know what to make of this.)
We battened down the hatches. I locked her and my pets away in her apartment, and headed for the Holotheater controls. The holographs work by projecting force, really. Energy -- heat, pressure, kinetic, whatever you have. However, the basic coding of the Holotheater is safe -- that is to say, bullets will not actually cause damage, fire will not actually burn. The Holotheater can't hurt its inhabitants. Unless the safety is off.
They charged the halls, I brought up the Danger Room program. They came down the walls, I turned the wall images to fire. They came in the doors and I... I left the controls, and went out to take care of things personally. WHY DID I DO THAT?! It was stupid, foolish, dumb -- and worse, it got Heather hurt. She projected herself down to see what was going on -- a cat-beast mauled her, her mother followed her, shot at her...
I... don't remember it very clearly.
And I'm scared. Am I losing my mind? It's all a haze, until I ran upstairs to heal Heather, when it all returns with crystal clarity, but nothing feels quite the same any more. Not since that fight... not during it... what's happening to me?
I went outside, yesterday. I don't know why. I wanted to find out what's wrong with Katie, what she's suffering from. It's preeclampsia, and that's bad. Worse, Kindra -- I didn't mention her, she's a friend Katie sent to me for a place to stay, I gave her one of the old apartments -- turns out she'd been attacked last night. God damn stupid me, couldn't just step away, had to go and talk to her and comfort her. I'm so damn tired. I'm so damn *tired*....
Zettai unmei mokushiroku.
