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Mar. 28th, 2004 01:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morganknightSo.
It turns out that lunch I spoke about yesterday was -- a ploy. After training, I went in to dinner only to discover that Andrea and Shadow were there as well. A reconciliation attempt on Nhairis's part? I don't know.
It didn't work, if it was.
Shadow and Andrea ripped me a new one over the course of the lunch. Shadow told me I was a failure, that I had utterly let my father down in running his company. Andrea leaped in to blast me for not asking HER help, because SHE'S a werewolf after all. I told her I didn't ask her help because she HATES me! It went on like that. She yelled at me for everything, with Shadow backing her up. I tried so hard not to say anything, I really did -- but by the end it was too damn much. I told Andrea that if we should happen to have any brothers somewhere that we didn't know about and we found the someday, I would be sure to let them know that when Andrea came on to them strong, she didn't REALLY want to sleep with them.
She slapped me and left. I excused myself.
And suddenly there's Andrea, attacking me with our mother's sword! I blocked -- I fight quick -- but I couldn't fight back, so I just stopped. And Andrea yelled at me.
I don't have a sister any more. That much is clear. She won't accept that she did anything wrong -- that she wasn't right to come on to me so fast, and push her way into my life -- she just wanted me gone. She told me to leave Nhairis -- she told me that I have no honor. She told me everything she possibly could to hurt me.
And no sooner does she leave than Nhairis steps out and tells me she's releasing me from her tutelage.
She told me that I was her prize student. That I was someone she worked hard because she saw the potential in me. She stood behind me, even when Shadow and Andrea both wished I would go to hell and never bother them again. I believed she would always stand by me.
But she sent me away.
It hurt her to do it. She was crying -- actually crying, saying that if I ever needed anything, that I should come to her... But we both know that I can't do that. Her family -- Shadow, and Andrea -- come first. And they wish me gone.
So I left.
I am moving to Rhydin, now. My only friends are in Rhydin, the only people I can trust. My sister is dead to me, and I am on my own now. Nhairis was, if not the best, truly one of the best -- and if I am not good enough for her, than I am not good enough for anyone. She lifted her ban on my fighting, but I know I'm not ready for it to be lifted, so I will continue to abide it... I owe her that honor, to respect the spirit of her teaching as well as the letter. But I can't stay on Earth any more. I need to be with people I can trust...
It turns out that lunch I spoke about yesterday was -- a ploy. After training, I went in to dinner only to discover that Andrea and Shadow were there as well. A reconciliation attempt on Nhairis's part? I don't know.
It didn't work, if it was.
Shadow and Andrea ripped me a new one over the course of the lunch. Shadow told me I was a failure, that I had utterly let my father down in running his company. Andrea leaped in to blast me for not asking HER help, because SHE'S a werewolf after all. I told her I didn't ask her help because she HATES me! It went on like that. She yelled at me for everything, with Shadow backing her up. I tried so hard not to say anything, I really did -- but by the end it was too damn much. I told Andrea that if we should happen to have any brothers somewhere that we didn't know about and we found the someday, I would be sure to let them know that when Andrea came on to them strong, she didn't REALLY want to sleep with them.
She slapped me and left. I excused myself.
And suddenly there's Andrea, attacking me with our mother's sword! I blocked -- I fight quick -- but I couldn't fight back, so I just stopped. And Andrea yelled at me.
I don't have a sister any more. That much is clear. She won't accept that she did anything wrong -- that she wasn't right to come on to me so fast, and push her way into my life -- she just wanted me gone. She told me to leave Nhairis -- she told me that I have no honor. She told me everything she possibly could to hurt me.
And no sooner does she leave than Nhairis steps out and tells me she's releasing me from her tutelage.
She told me that I was her prize student. That I was someone she worked hard because she saw the potential in me. She stood behind me, even when Shadow and Andrea both wished I would go to hell and never bother them again. I believed she would always stand by me.
But she sent me away.
It hurt her to do it. She was crying -- actually crying, saying that if I ever needed anything, that I should come to her... But we both know that I can't do that. Her family -- Shadow, and Andrea -- come first. And they wish me gone.
So I left.
I am moving to Rhydin, now. My only friends are in Rhydin, the only people I can trust. My sister is dead to me, and I am on my own now. Nhairis was, if not the best, truly one of the best -- and if I am not good enough for her, than I am not good enough for anyone. She lifted her ban on my fighting, but I know I'm not ready for it to be lifted, so I will continue to abide it... I owe her that honor, to respect the spirit of her teaching as well as the letter. But I can't stay on Earth any more. I need to be with people I can trust...
